A group I’m leading was exploring the concepts of blessing and cursing in scripture just a few days ago.  Whenever the topic of curses comes up I like to take a look at Balaam in Numbers 22.  Balaam was the guy whose donkey spoke to him while Balaam spoke back as if nothing unusual was going on.  Our conversation went to an odd part of the story.  Here is the gist of the story and the question that came up in our group study.

As Israel moved towards the promised land of Canaan, they camped in Moab along the Jordon River.  When Balak, the king of Moab, saw Israel camped on his border he “freaked.” Imagine waking up to a million or more people camped along your border knowing that these people had just defeated the neighboring Amorites.  With that in mind, Moab in conjunction with Midian, determined to seek the help of a man named Balaam who was known to place both blessings and curses on people with significant effect.  They sent a delegation to him with a fee for divination and asked him to curse the Israelites so that they might defeat them in war.

Interestingly, Balaam said that he would have to seek the Lord about cursing these folks who were new to the neighborhood.  Balaam did so and God responded.  He told Balaam not to go with the men because he was not to curse what God had blessed (Israel).  Balaam told the delegation, “Go back to your own country, for the Lord has refused to let me go with you.”  The delegation returned and reported to Balak what Balaam had said.  Balak responded by sending a more distinguished delegation and more money for the divination fee. So Balaam sought the Lord again on behalf of Balak to see if he could now declare a curse on Israel.  This time the Lord told him to go with the delegation but when he did, the text says, “But God was very angry when he went, and the angel of the Lord stood in the road to oppose him.”

So what’s the deal?  God tells him to go and when he does, God gets angry?  Is God playing games?  Did he change his mind at the last minute or what?  That was the crux of our group conversation.  What does that part of the story teach us about our relationship with God or God’s relationship with us?

Let’s just begin by saying that God often surprises us.  Balaam was not a prophet of God as far as we know and he was no priest. Yet, he enquired of God and heard from him clearly. Perhaps, he had been a prophet at one time but had misused his gift and drifted off into divination. We really don’t know.  What we do know is that God was very clear about not cursing what he had blessed. He was very clear that Balaam was to have nothing to do with that.  And yet, when offered more money and more honor by the enemy, Balaam pressed in again.  Balaam was an idolater.  His idols were money and the praise of men. He wanted that more than he feared God.

The story reveals that God basically told him that he knew what God’s will was in the matter. If he insisted on pursuing those material desires then go for it, but beware of the consequences.  I believe God was angry because Balaam chose to pursue the money even though he knew what the heart of God truly was. He had told Balaam to go with the delegation but to do only what God told him.  I’m speculating, but I believe that while going Balaam was still arguing with God in his spirit.  He was formulating another approach to get God to give him permission or he had decided to do what he wanted regardless of what God told him.  In essence, he was going to rationalize his situation so that he could get the money regardless of God’s command.

We are told later than Balaam dabbled in sorcery and that, although he didn’t speak a curse on Israel, he counseled their enemies to draw them into idolatry and sexual immorality so that their own actions would bring a curse on them.

Here is the point.  We often know what God’s will is on a subject and yet our flesh longs to do or have what God has forbidden.  And yet we look for loopholes and ways to convince God that he should make an exception for us.  Sometimes, we simply determine to do what we want to satisfy our craving with a mind to count on God’s grace later – the spiritual version of asking forgiveness rather than permission.

There may come a time when we have pressed God and pressed God to allow us to enjoy sin or pursue our version of idolatry and then he says, “Go ahead.”  He says it because we are bound to do it anyway.  In that moment he honors our free will without approving of what we are pursuing, knowing that the consequences will be hard teachers, but those are the teachers we have chosen.  It’s almost as if God says to us, “Then go ahead if you are determined, but you’ll be sorry.”  Then we go ahead and when we end up in the ditch we blame God.

How many of us have known Christians who chose to marry an unbeliever against everyone’s counsel or a couple who has chosen to live together even though scripture clearly forbids it?  At some point when we have counseled and plead long enough without being heard, we simply say,” God ahead, but remember when you asked me, I said, “No.”

This story serves as a warning against knowing God’s clear will on a subject while we press ahead trying to convince him that his commands don’t fit our personal situation or while looking for some legalistic loophole to justify our disobedience. The warning is that God may well honor our free will by backing off which we may then take as permission because that is what you have been looking for.

Once you know what God has to say about a matter, it is better to obey him rather than trying to find a way around God’s clear commandments.  Just as it was in the Garden, God’s commandments are not given to deprive us but to protect us.  Balaam did not curse Israel when it was all said and done, but it took a talking donkey and an angel with a drawn sword to settle the matter.  Ultimately, his heart was far from God and he helped the enemies of Israel overcome them. Ultimately, he came to a bad end.

Maybe you have been flirting with the idea of ignoring God’s clear commands because you want something so badly.  I can tell you from personal experience that when I have done it God’s way, I have never regretted it. When I have done it my way, I have often regretted it. Be wiser than Balaam.  Surrender to God and whatever that surrender costs you in the short run, God will more than match in the long run.  Choose God and be blessed.

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