I’m reading through 1 Samuel again and the accounts of Saul and David.  As you recall, Saul was the first king of Israel.  He was anointed to be king by Samuel and in the beginning seemed promising.  He appeared to be humble but the humility turned out to be massive insecurity and fear.  His reign was marked by moments of disobedience to God’s clear commands while always rationalizing why he had no options but to violate the commands.

In 1 Samuel 15, a revealing incident takes place. The Lord commands Saul to attack the Amalekites and totally destroy them for what they had done to Israel as they came from Egypt.  We are told that Saul attacked the Amalekites and killed most of them.  However, he took their king Agag prisoner and saved the best of their sheep and cattle. After the battle he encountered Samuel and said, “The Lord bless you! I have carried out the Lord’sinstructions.” But Samuel said, “What then is this bleating of sheep in my ears? What is this lowing of cattle that I hear?” Saul answered, “The soldiers brought them from the Amalekites; they spared the best of the sheep and cattle to sacrifice to the Lord your God, but we totally destroyed the rest.” “Stop!” Samuel said to Saul. “Let me tell you what the Lord said to me last night.” “Tell me,” Saul replied.  Samuel said, “Although you were once small in your own eyes, did you not become the head of the tribes of Israel? The Lord anointed you king over Israel. And he sent you on a mission, saying, ‘Go and completely destroy those wicked people, the Amalekites; make war on them until you have wiped them out.’ Why did you not obey the Lord? Why did you pounce on the plunder and do evil in the eyes of the Lord?” “But I did obey the Lord,” Saul said. “I went on the mission the Lord assigned me. I completely destroyed the Amalekites and brought back Agag their king. The soldiers took sheep and cattle from the plunder, the best of what was devoted to God, in order to sacrifice them to the Lord your God at Gilgal.” (1 Sam. 15:13-21)

Saul’s character is revealed here and, to some degree, his view of God.  Saul seemed to think that if he generally did the will of God, he had done all that God had commanded.  He took the commands of God and then modified them to fit his situation, but then insisted that he had been fully obedient.  How many times do we obey God in some areas, but then find reasons to justify the part where we disobey while convincing ourselves that we are fully surrendered to God?

Over the years, I have known believers who were involved in immoral relationships but somehow decided that since they “loved one another” and were “faithful” to their lover that God was okay with what they were doing.   Others have embezzled money from their  company to “meet the needs of their family” and because the company owed them that money for all the years and hours they had put in without a raise or promotion.  Somehow, they were able to justify themselves because they “had to provide for their family” and because they were correcting their company’s injustice. I know others who have forgiven some, but have assigned others a special status where unforgiveness was justified because of how great the betrayal had been.  I have also known church leaders who excused their porn addictions because their wife wasn’t meeting their sexual needs and they were not having an actual affair. In all these instances, like Saul, they believed that because they were obedient in some things, they were obedient in all things.  Satan can blind us to the realities of our life and our disobedience to God.  If you had asked these individuals if they were submitted Christians who walked in obedience to God, they would have assured you that they were. 

Before we feel smug, I am pretty certain that we all have blind spots like these that we do not count as disobedience because we are obedient in many other areas and we find “reasons” why our disobedience should be acceptable due to “extenuating circumstances.”  Perhaps, we don’t give to the Lord or give to the poor as we should because we have other financial obligations – our boat payment, the big house we just purchased, the top-of-the-line pickup we really needed, the European vacation we had promised our spouse, etc.   Perhaps, we don’t serve at church because we are too busy with career, kid’s sports, our favorite recreational activities, etc.  Often, when we are financially blessed, we give money but not our time and so feel our money makes up for our time we don’t give the Lord because we are busy enjoying all the things money can provide.  None of these things are wrong in themselves except when they keep us from obedience.  Then, when we ignore or rationalize our disobedience, we have become like Saul. We fall into the view that God is pleased with “close enough.

We are all going to fall short in our obedience to God.  But our proper response is confession and repentance rather than rationalization and our insistence that we are submitted followers of Jesus in every area of our life. As we continue to read 1 and 2 Samuel, we see David fall into disobedience as well – the Bathsheba incident.  In many ways, what he did seems to far out rank Saul’s failures as sin.  The difference was that David acknowledged his sin, made no excuses, and threw himself on the mercy of God. Saul consistently denied his disobedience, insisted that circumstances had left him no choice, or blamed others for “forcing” him into his bad decisions.

As a result, God removed the kingdom from Saul and gave it to David.  Samuel declared, “Does the Lord delight in burnt offerings and sacrifices in as much as obeying the Lord? To obey is better than sacrifice.”  May we be aware of our failures to obey, but repent rather than rationalize.  And may our prayer be the same as David’s: “Search me, O God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts. See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.”

When I first became a believer way back in the 70’s, I attended a church that preached grace but practiced works more than they knew. Grace was their aspirational theology, but whether you were counted as part of the faithful in that church was a matter of works. If you were to be counted faithful or a “real Christian” you attended Sunday morning, Sunday night and Wednesday night. If there was a blizzard raging outside, you braved the streets to demonstrate your commitment. You were there everynight of a “gospel meeting” (revival) and you were front and center to help staff VBS in the summer. There was lots of pressure to do it all and be at everything. If you missed due to weather or if you were just tired and stayed home, you weren’t excommunicated, but you did feel a palpable disappointment in the air from those who had braved the weather and come even thought they were tired. There was definitely a legalism at work…which was unhealthy and unbiblical.

Dial the clock forward to 2020. In America the pendulum has swung from legalism to almost a hyper-grace where if you have prayed the prayer of salvation, show up at church occasionally and serve only when it is ultra-convenient, you are good to go. In fact, church growth experts count a person who only darkens the door of the church once a month as a regular attender. There was a time when Christians came home from vacations on Saturday night so that they could be in church on Sunday. No sports on Wednesday night, because church came first. If you actually were traveling on Sunday, you still found a church to attend where you were visiting. That might lean toward legalism, but a healthy dose of that commitment to meeting with spiritual family and keeping “church nights” open might not be a bad thing because it does indicate priorities. There is certainly more to our faith than church attendance, but our devotion to our spiritual family is a very big thing to God.

I think if we are honest, many American believers attend church only if they have a date open after they have filled in their calendar with hundreds of other things the world offers. Church attendance and involvement seem to have become very optional in the hearts of “the saved.” We have come to a place where it seems we have defined Christianity as taking our best shot at moral living rather than being devoted to Christ and those he died for.

There is a consistent theme throughout the Bible that God must come first and that he is worthy of our sacrifices since he sacrificed his only begotten Son for us. Under the Old Covenant, the best of the flock had to be offered rather than the defective sheep and goats The first fruits of harvest were to be offered as a reminder that God was the source of those crops. God was angry when Israel only offered their leftovers rather than the best they had. David, when needing to offer a sacrifice to end a plague that was killing thousands in Israel, was offered everything he needed for the sacrifice as a gift. David refused the gift but insisted on paying top dollar. He declared, “I will not sacrifice to the Lord my God burnt offerings that cost me nothing” (2 Sam. 24:26). In other words, if it costs us nothing or very little, it is not a sacrifice.

In the New Testament, the church was marked by devotion to spiritual family. When someone had a need, members of the church gave what they had to meet the need and often sold property to do so (Acts 2:42-47.) That was an expression of love for each other that set them apart from the world. Remember, Jesus said, “By this everyone will know that you are my disciples, if you love one another”(Jn. 13:35). When the church had that kind of devotion to one another, it thrived.

Many American believers think they can love God while having little thought for his church. John tells us, “For whoever does not love his brother or sister (in Christ) whom they have seen, cannot love God whom they have not seen (1 Jn. 4:19). Jesus is very clear that love must be demonstrated not just proclaimed. If I say I love my family, but spend no time with them and meet none of their needs, I am proclaiming love but not truly loving. The same is true for spiritual family. Devotion costs us something. It is sacrificial. Sacrificing time, resources, service, emotional reserves, etc. for the church when it is extremely inconvenient is a sacrifice acceptable to God.

I know there are many believers who are truly devoted to Christ and his bride. They live sacrificial lives for God every day. But I also know there are many who claim to love God but only give and serve when it is very convenient. Truthfully, there is no sacrifice in that. My hope is that each of us will evaluate our service to the Lord and his church and decide to offer sacrifices to him that actually cost us something because one thing love does for sure…it sacrifices. And love is the measure of everything in the Kingdom.

Blessings in Him.