We just concluded our Spring Free Indeed session at Mid-Cities. This is an eight-week class equipping people for healing and freedom followed by an all-day activation of everything taught during the eight weeks. The day includes inner healing, breaking generational curses, disconnecting from toxic and sinful relationships, forgiveness, repentance, as well as deliverance.
Year after year, as we walk believers through this process, it is always evident that a person’s identity is a primary key to overcoming the enemy and that a shattered identity is an open door for the demonic. The most broken people and the most demonized men and women are those who feel unworthy of love, who fear rejection and abandonment, and who walk with a crippling sense of shame about who they are. They know what the Bible says about who they are in Christ, but in their hearts, they still see themselves as unworthy, unlovable, and disqualified from God’s blessings and calling.
We also see an amazing amount of transformation occur when a follower of Jesus begins to believe in their heart who God says he or she is instead of who Satan, the accuser of the brethren, says they are. He begins his work early by wounding children through wounded adults. Children take on a negative view of themselves through abusive or neglectful parents, a traumatic loss of loved ones, hypercritical people, molesters, rapists, and so forth. A child inevitably believes bad things happen to them because he or she is defective, bad, or unworthy of a parent’s care and protection. Later those views can be reinforced through abusive, critical spouses or parents that keep up the rejection and demeaning words.
Exchanging that negative view with God’s truth about who we are in Christ is critical. But how do we get there? I may know what scripture says about me, but actually believing that truth in my heart and making that truth my first thought when the enemy accuses and condemns, is the goal. Paul addresses the issue when he says, “Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind” (Rom. 12:2). We are transformed when we renew our minds with God’s truth. Jesus said we will know the truth and the truth will set us free.
The Holy Spirit, of course, works through the “living and active” Word of God to bear his fruit in our lives and to reform our thinking processes. But we have a significant part in that process. Brain research over the past few decades has revealed some amazing things about God’s creation. Thoughts and experiences are actually contained in brain real estate called neural pathways. These pathways contain memories, emotions, beliefs, and so on sort of like a computer stores memory.
A computer file can be filled with information, pictures, music, etc. but sits dormant until something in the operating system calls it up and activates it. Our neural pathways can sit dormant until something happens that is directly or even indirectly connected to what is stored up and then the neural pathway is accessed. The memories along with beliefs and feelings attached to those memories, come flooding back. We call those “reminders” triggers. Triggers can be words, actions, a tone of voice, sounds, or scenes that have some similarity to the things that initially created the pathway. PTSD episodes for soldiers are a prime example.
Unfortunately, experiences that only vaguely resemble the words and behaviors captured in the neural pathway can also set off a cascade of hurts, resentments, fears, anger, condemnation, shame etc. so that the wounded person almost relives their past hurtful experiences. Usually, the wounded individual then blames the person who accidentally tapped into that pathway with all the pain stored up there. They assign the same motives to this new person that the perpetrator of the wounds had and relationships are typically damaged. Those revitalized feelings can reinforce the beliefs about ourselves they initially established and Satan then uses that dynamic to great advantage.
The solution is found in weakening the pathway that holds false beliefs and replacing it with a new, stronger pathway containing God’s truth. We can’t just decide not to think those negative thoughts about ourselves anymore, but must replace them with God’s truth about who we are. That is where the power of meditation should be employed. Neural pathways are established through the repetition and/or intensity of experiences, words spoken, etc.
Related to identity, we can intentionally lay in new pathways by meditating on what God says is true about us. We should read it over and over. When we read it aloud it adds an extra dimension to the meditation. When we write it out, that adds one more layer. When we talk about it with friends, it goes even deeper. Even writing with colors or attaching music to the words helps to create the new pathway more quickly. Memorizing the scripture adds another dimension.
The discipline in renewing the mind is found in consistent, intentional meditation on the Word of God. When the Holy Spirit joins in the process, he can write a revelation of God’s truth on our hearts. That is when transformation takes place by the renewing of the mind. If we have shame, unworthiness, and rejection deeply imbedded in us, it will take more consistency and intentionality on our part to create a stronger pathway. The psalmist declares, “Blessed is the man who does not walk in the counsel of the wicked or stand in the way of sinners or sit in the seat of mockers. But his delight is in the law of the Lord, and on his law he meditates day and night. He is like a tree planted by streams of water, which yields its fruit in season and whose leaf does not wither. Whatever he does prospers” (Ps. 1:1-3).
After the new pathway is sufficiently laid in and empowered by the Holy Spirit, when something comes up related to our value, worth, or competence our new neural pathway is accessed and we respond as a person who is confident in our worth, our capacities, and God’s love for us. We no longer feel wounded again or experience the pain of rejection. Satan labors in this field daily wanting us to believe we are beyond love, beyond God’s forgiveness and disqualified from his blessings and plan for our lives. We must be diligent to say only what God says about us Satan will reactivate the old, decayed pathway full of his lies.
If you struggle with your identity, your self-esteem, begin to read God’s word with an eye toward seeing who the Father says you are in Christ. Find a half dozen scriptures the Holy Spirit highlights for you and meditate on them day and night. To become who God has called us to be, we must see ourselves as that person. Set a goal of reading these scriptures out loud, writing them down, talking about them, singing them, etc. every day for ninety days. You will see transformation take place in your life. Have your children do it with you!